UPDATE, Husband's RAGE and ABUSE 4/18/2023 ~~ 3:29 pm Tuesday
My husband is truly mentally ill. I no longer know what to do or not do. I have to get me and these animals AWAY from him. We (animals and me) need a safe home of our own. I watched him less than 3 hours ago pick up a shovel and hold it like a baseball bat and start to swing it at my head... (I moved backward up the porch steps and asked him "Are you going to hit me with a shovel? What is wrong with you?") I watched him punch a dwarf goat in the face with his fist 3 times because the goat wanted to play with him. I watched him throw a rolled up electric fence wire wad a foot long into my face and hit me in the left eye with it. He is OUT OF control, and threatened two days ago to begin "shooting up dope again". (His words). It was less than 3 weeks ago that he kicked one of our dogs in the chest with his steel toed work boot as hard as he could. In the last several months he's "accidentally" ran into me with his entire body and knocked me into walls, etc. nearly knocking me down several times. Last night at midnight he decided he wanted "us" to go pick up food to eat (even though we had food at our old country home to eat). He drove 12 miles to town. My husband was all over the road, surging the car and hitting the brakes the entire 12 miles, and running off the road several times. I don't know if he'd drank alcohol before we left or had taken some sort of drug I didn't know of or what?? We got food and I drove back...sigh. I'm afraid of his rages, I'm afraid he's going to kill himself and /or me, either snap and physical beat me beyond what I can survive. He's threatened to kill himself twice in the last month (and months gone by). I can't abide him abusing the animals. I am positive this is why his deceased wife never got physically better in 20 years -- because of his physical abuse of her. She tried to leave him several times. I fully believe he kept his first wife crippled up ON PURPOSE TO KEEP HER FROM LEAVING HIM.
UPDATE: April 18th, 2023 ~~ 12:22 am
Over the past three months remaining with my husband has become unbearable. His rages and abuse has gotten worse. I never know what to expect or when... My husband has serious mental issues that he's not willing to address. I have over 1100 voice recordings of his rages / our "fights" from the last two years. About 20 months or more ago, I begin making "video diaries" of myself talking after his rages also... in case he harmed me badly or hurt one of our animals I would have some sort of proof. I also found out two months ago he's doing "online betting" / gambling. Every time he loses money, his rages are much worse and he takes this out on me in hateful rages by telling me we can't "afford to keep my animals" and threatening to take them away from me. I'm so very very sick of it ALL. He's gambling and then telling me I can't spent $150 a month on my animals?? I told him one day I WILL HAVE MY OWN MONEY, AND MY OWN HOME...and he just cussed and raged more, putting me down and trying to make me feel I'm worth nothing. He downs any idea, plans, or anything I want to do to improve myself. If I so much as mention I will hunt a job he goes ballistic in his raging. (I am also much worse off physically from his abuse than I was 2 yrs ago.) His gambling and losing money explains why his rages have intensified so much the last several months. He's also begin drinking a great deal more the last five months. (He's a recovered alcoholic from many years ago.) (He's also a recovered drug addict from 30 yrs ago. There's been several times the last year when he's threatened to begin using drugs again, the last time being yesterday.) (I know over the last year and a half there's been 3 times when I'm certain he did actually use some sort of illegal drug, because he would leave the house in a rage and come back 30 minutes later drugged out, mellow and then sleeping... ) I don't ever feel safe with him. It's so difficult never being to lie down and sleep deeply, restfully. I don't know how much longer I can survive this way.
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I would like to put together volunteers who are committed to helping other women in abusive situations. I know from personal experience that many times I have needed support and a kind word and/or prayer to help myself through an incident while trying to save my marriage and deal with a raging husband. I want to take our convictions and turn them into action. Think you would be a good person to help us? Get in touch for more information! We want to make a dedicated team to help with this site's content and development.
Not to discriminate at all, but on this site we are talking about hetero sexual (woman and man) relationships here, and marriages. If you are in another situation where you need advice or help I urge you to find another site that more so specializes in your unique situation as I only have experience in the type of relationship I have mentioned above.
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In my last two years of journey through domestic abuse and my own marriage which has been filled with it, I have found many websites that are for abused women but I still felt alone in my searching. I have found a few fb groups but I'm not sure how guarded or safe these are for women that want to stay married while working on themselves
In my last two years of journey through domestic abuse and my own marriage which has been filled with it, I have found many websites that are for abused women but I still felt alone in my searching. I have found a few fb groups but I'm not sure how guarded or safe these are for women that want to stay married while working on themselves and finding ways to help their abusive husbands. YES, abusive husbands CAN change their ways, but they will need help. Not all women want out. That's ok it you don't (or do) ! The ones of us that want to make our marriages work should not be belittled in any way. Neither should the women that do want out of marriages or relationships.
In my own personal journey I've been going to a few therapist over the last year. One has advised me to leave my husband and at times I felt I wanted to, but my heart has said "Stay he will come around."
My POINT here is, it's YOUR Choice to go or stay and only you and your heart know when it's the correct time, or if it is. MANY factors figure into the equation... on a sometimes daily basis... So YOU have to decide for yourself how much you can or want to take before, or if, you leave.
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I want to focus on the maximum positive ways to deal with the abuse each of US endures and attempt to figure out the best way to allow us to either gain our freedom, or learn tactics which help us in daily life to deal with our situations and attempt to help our husbands to see that we do love them and that they truly need mental o
I want to focus on the maximum positive ways to deal with the abuse each of US endures and attempt to figure out the best way to allow us to either gain our freedom, or learn tactics which help us in daily life to deal with our situations and attempt to help our husbands to see that we do love them and that they truly need mental or emotional therapy to get their lives and minds under control.
We would like volunteers here so we can build a momentum that helps us ALL affect some type of positive change in our lives. One of the goals I want to accomplish is finding workable solutions that make a long-lasting difference for women in abusive situations.
There's several types of domestic abuse. Some I'm personally acquainted with are Mental, Emotional, Physical, Mind Games... Psychological... The mission of this site is to HELP women deal with what they are enduring and to try to be a support system.
I'm married to a vulnerable narcissist.
In his wonderful state of mind he's a great husband who is kind and loving and considerate. (About 55 percent of the time.) In his horrible state of mind he's hateful, SO just downright MEAN, cruel, threatening, and such a bully.