May 9th, 2025 11:06PM
This may all seem scattered and not composed... cause it is. My nerves are stressed, and I feel sick... I'm tired, and have a headache. His daughter is so willfully hateful many times. She has a mental issue with just simply someone showing her how to do something or trying to help her. She's LAZY, dirty (filthy actually like her brother) and simply doesn't know how to just be commonly polite. It's as if EVERYONE is always doing something to her... they don't like her, they are out to get her, they are lying on her... I MEAN REALLY she's NOT that much of people's world... JUST like the seven roommates she had the last 3 years from the college dorms to THREE different apartments??? SEVEN people where just "out to get her"????? She and her brother, AND MY HUSBAND are delusional and paranoid... PEOPLE do not revolve their lives AROUND THEM.... MY brain cannot even barely fathom how they are and how they minds work. ALL THREE of them are mentally ILL, to say the very least.
My husband's daughter has been supposed to wash her bed clothes the LAST TWO days and nights. I told her yesterday all day I would wash them, she never got them off the bed in her old room. ALL DAY yesterday. Then I went to our old country house last night an tried to wash her bed clothes before I left at and 7:30. She would not get her bed clothes off the bed for me to wash. I went on to the store and on to our old country house. I told my husband when he called twice last night that he could deal with her, as she got grumpy with me. He told me, "We don't need to deal with it let her deal with washing them herself."
She decided about 20 minutes ago to finally wash her bed clothes and was trying to put them in the dryer to wash them??? She doesn't even try to do for herself.
HE DOESN'T WANT TO DEAL WITH HER OR HIS SON THAT LIVES WITH US. HE'S TOO AFRAID TO "hurt their feelings" rather than STAND up and be a father and make them both be respectful and kind to others and to take responsibility and accountability for themselves. HE allowed both of them to run over their OWN mother. He lied about that and said he was the tough one on them and that their mother told him "No... they are special and you can't treat them like you do other kids." THAT is pure BS. He has never shown tough love since I've been here 6 years. His son lives like a complete and utter slob in the bedroom here. (Photo on left is of son's room and this is supposed to be after he cleaned it? We are talking about a 26 1/2 year old man??)
RIGHT NOW my husband is on the sofa in the living room and can't hold his eyes open he's so tired from running his daughter all over the past 4 days since she caused the physical fight with her roommate.
YET, he's bitched at me today. About 20 minutes she finally decided she was going to wash her bed clothes as I mentioned above. She was going to put them in the dryer??? HOW crazy is that? She just tries to make drama. I went in the utility room to show her how to use the washer. She popped off, "I know how to use the washer..." I told her, "NO you don't you just tried to put clothes in the dryer for the washer. This is a different washer and you don't know how to use it." They she didn't want to listen on how to use it or how much detergent to use. I told my husband, "Come deal with this..." He came in the utility room and said, "You have to start over her washing clothes...?" I TOLD HIM, "SHE tried to put clothes in the dryer to wash them, and she doesn't want to listen to anyone about anything." He walked out of the utility room and popped off his BS mouth to me. I told him, "AT LEAST when my 17 year old nephew stayed with US he was respectful of everyone and listened." My husband started his bullshit attempting to demean me and cussing me and his emotional and mental abuse. I voice recorded most of it. He said hateful things. I told him, "My sister has had my nephew 8 years and we TAUGHT him respect toward others unlike what he's taught his "kids". I told him my nephew would never be so disrespectful. He begin his narcissist raging and abuse of me. I told his to "shut the fuck up". I'm truly SICK of their bullying. I told him that's all the three of them know how to do is try to bully people. He said, "I'm glad your nephew went to the army youth camp to get away from you and you sister, yall treat him so badly." I told him, "NO we teach him discipline and respect UNLIKE what you have done with your kids all their lives." He cussed and raged... and was very abusive and hateful with me.
My husband cussed and raged attempting to demean me and deflect all their bullshit onto someone else. He accused me of hiding his daughter's walmart bag from her. I HID nothing from her. I put in directly on top her piles of black 2 x 3 packed moving bags. HOW is that hiding anything. I did not have any idea what was in it. I just moved it out of the way. SHE made a drama out of finding it. I told her I didn't know what she was looking for but look over by where all her stuff is piled in the floor when you come in the front door. My husband finally walked right over there and found it for her... THEN accused me with his BS of "hiding" it from her saying to me, "She didn't say anything but she knows you hid her stuff..." ????????????????????????????? AS my sister tells me all the time, and as my friend that passed away a year ago told me, ALL THREE OF THEM... MY HUSBAND AND HIS TWO ADULT KIDS ARE PSYCHO. SERIOUSLY.
GOD STOP THIS WITH HIS KIDS, INTERFERRING IN OUR LIVES. STOP MY HUSBAND FROM HIS RAGES AND HATEFULLNESS TOWARD ME. AMEN.
I ASK IN JESUS NAME THAT YOU, GOD, PROVIDE THE FUNDS, AND MEANS FOR ME TO PURCHASE MY OWN HOME AND PROPERTY, AND JUST LEAVE FOR GOOD. AMEN.
IF he's going to accuse me of stuff I'm about ready to start doing it. IF I didn't know GOD they would all have hell to pay. I try to "do unto others as I've have them do unto me..." BUT I'm very tired of his BS. LIKE my friend that passed away told me... They are just not nice people. She said... "They are just not nice people... they are just not." They are all three bullies. She spent years in an abusive relationship with a guy she just got away from six years ago. We were looking at a property to purchase together I met my husband and he and I begin dating. He HID all his abusive ways until the 5th month of our marriage.
It's really sad how mean they can be. It's ALWAYS someone else who caused the fights they get into... it's never them. It's crazy how abusive they are to anyone they are around for any amount of time.
5-10-2025 Saturday
My husband's daughter went into our room to talk to her dad. He knows that is the only private place in this house (our city house) I have. I've been thinking about putting a key lock on the door. I think I will.
This day has made me very tired. I have had a LONG talk with God...sigh. I want away from all this drama with my husband and his "Kids". I do pray for them. I do not have to like them though. It's ridiculous how my husband has allowed them to run over they own mother when she was alive, and HIMSELF, and me. In our room he was talking to her about getting more stuff from her apartment. My husband told her he can't get the big stuff as we have no where to put it.
I am ready to sit in a corner and cry. I do not want to be around all this. My husband has trapped me in this marriage by controlling all our finances, taking what little money I had saved 4 years, making me stop working, and trying to make me give up anything related to MY life free of him, or before him. I have kept domain names for 24 years, and websites. He's tried to make me give up all my websites and domains. He doesn't want me to have anything without him that he cannot control. He is terrified that I will succeed and have my own money. He got furious with me when he found out I have had one credit card of my own, a few months ago, because he opened my mail. I told him it was an old one my sister and I had from way back. He was furious. (If he knew I had two more small one he would keel over, because he want total control of me.
What else can I possible do? I keep having to remind myself I am not dealing with a "normal" man... I'm dealing with someone that did his first wife this way for 20 years, who had her declared a threat to herself and had her committed to a mental hospital. I'm dealing with a man that took his first wife's drivers license away from her and who took her inheritance that he father left HER. He also took the settlement she received from a vehicle wreck also.
My husband told me the big story not long after we married about how he "made it big" in the stock market years ago. The way the conversation came up was he made a few small investments, at that time, and told me I was "good luck" for him because they were doing very well. After that he told me the story of how he'd made close to $700,000 trading in stocks years ago, and even people he worked with wanted his advice back then. For months he was doing great way back then, with all kinds of people he knew him congratulating him and asking him for investment advice. After months of doing GREAT though, he invested everything, the entire amount, and LOST it ALL he said!!!! I was "dumbfounded" because I could not believe he did that!!!!!!! I asked him why didn't he just invest a percentage of it after he's already made that much. He really didn't seem to still believe he had lost that much it seemed. He just said I was sure I knew what I was doing... and I went for the BIG money, and lost it all. I personally can't really comprehend him doing that... I just said I would not have done it. I may have reinvested $100,000 or two hundred thousand but NOT all of it. I didn't say much really about it.
He's totally obsessed with the stock market the last 3 years. (and talking on news forums). Since the late summer of 2023 he's literally did nothing at our city house other than cut the small yard... and at times go spend an hour in the attic accomplishing nothing. He has not been to our old country house in 16 or 17 months, for WHICH, I THANK GOD. In truth I pray he never goes ever again. I pray I can somehow sell the old place for a HUGE amount and pay off the note and put half in an account for myself. It's worth a great deal, and I've been thinking the right person will come to me to buy it.
It's already 4:08 am on Saturday (May 10th)... I'm about to try to sleep. My niece sent me a small Mother's Day gift today and this helped me a good deal, because right now and all last evening just want to cry. I have been looking at a farm in TN that I've had saved a long long time. I've been listening to different YouTube people on "Manifesting Your Dream Life".... Maybe it's Mother's Day...maybe that's part of my sadness? I am sooo tired of always feeling / being stressed with my husband and the stupidity of the drama he and his two adult "kids" make for NO reasons. I mean, life is NOT this difficult...sigh.
I wanted to document all this "crap" about his daughter, and this BS with her moving in with US even for a little while. It's ALL BS. She's lied on her current roommate just like she's done with the other SIX in the past three years. GOD is going to have to get her out of here, and his son... OR GET ME OUT OF HERE to my own place. I am crying now. Crying and praying. I told God if I'm going to have a husband (AND I DO NOW) that he MUST be kind, supportive, loving and gentle TOWARD ME and place NO other over ME other than God. I don't care what anyone says, no one should come before a husband and wife with each other... not kids, or anyone other than GOD. This is actually in the Bible also. I've heard many preachers preach on this also...that "parents" need to always be united and stand with one and other, and the children come AFTER the husband and wife. This doesn't mean you don't love and care for your children dearly... that's not what it mean at all.
I don't know how long his daughter will be here before her temper and rage blows up... thus I'm documenting this here and posting to to my website on a public page where anyone can read it... sigh.
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It's May 10th, 2025, Saturday morning at 4:25 am. I thought I was finished documenting things for yesterday but I NEED and WANT to add this: My BIG Shepherd dog was out last night about 10pm. I walked the entire fence and see NO WAY for him to get out!!! I believe my husband let him out the dog yard gate. He went outside (out the kitchen back door right before his daughter and he went to Walmart and Win Dixie about 10pm last night. AS they were leaving in the car, I heard my shepherd boy REARING BARKING like he was going after something. I went out the back kitchen door and went the back dog yard and opened privacy gate and stood calling him at the chain link gate. He came racing from AROUND the front of the house to me!! I was so shocked and afraid when I saw he was out. THAT IS NOT like him at all...
I've already decided I'm putting up at least 4 cameras, and not telling my husband anything. I'm putting one up in the living room and /or kitchen, one in our bedroom (unless I can get the one I already have working well again), and at least one if not two in the back yard where I can see ALL the yard and gates as well. I have two WiFi solar powered cameras already and two RING cameras already. I think I will get two more Ring cameras and hid them in the living room and kitchen and one in our bedroom. I also think I will use my credit card to pay the year Ring subscription like my sister has to record all her cameras. This way I can always LOOK BACK at anything and everything if I want to, PLUS it will be recorded.
You know... the WAY my husband has forced me to live the last 5 years if NOT RIGHT whatsoever. I think, like my sister, and my friend has said, he's miserable with himself and can't forget all the abuse he did to his first wife. THAT'S why before and after we married he kept telling me he hated this house and hated living here... (the city house). Like they both said he can't stand the memories of all the fights, rages and meanness he did to her.
I watched Jesse Duplantis Ministries tonight for a couple hours after my husband came in the bedroom. My husband hates me watching him, or Joel Osteen or any preacher for that matter, and he HATEs for me to pray, or talk in tongues. He said, "YOU and your fake God and your fake religion... You are a fake Christian and just try to scare my kids with your fake praying, acting like you are holier than thy." I used to not listen to Jesse, or Joel or any preachers and about a year ago I got tired of having to not let him know I watched them.... so I have them on tv on purpose sometimes now because I'm sick of his control and I am NOT going to hide GOD just because he doesn't want me to watch and get some sort of encouragement. He says the are all fake.... I told him I don't care if they are I get encouragement from listening and LORD knows I NEED IT.
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Daughter hit and shoved me: Saturday, May 10th, 2025 I'm begin writing this at 4:30... this happened about an hour ago: SEE BELOW >>>>>>>
My husband's daughter shoved me twice, threw things and hit me with them twice and also elbowed me and hit me on my back BECAUSE she had her things from her apartment ALL over the office room from the front door to the kitchen where we could not even walk. (This happened about 3:30pm) I'd asked her kindly to NOT put things on the cats table and leave them... (it's an end table right when you come in the front door on the right, put there 2 years ago just for the cats). It's fine to set things there if you need to but don't pile up the entire table and leave it for two days, when you are told 20 times that's the cat's table where they sit and look out the front window, and sun, etc.
SHE IS GOING TO GET IN A PHYSICAL FIGHT SOON (AS MY SISTER SAYS) AND THEY ARE GOING TO PUT HER UNDER THE JAIL INSTEAD OF IN IT. She has had two used gift bags laying on the desk, the counter, the chair for 2 days and said we can have them. I told her we don't need gift bags, there's about 20 used ones in the closet from them from 10 years ago already, not to mention a few newer ones. I did not dig in them even though she said they were for us and I could have them. I just threw them away because she didn't want them finally this evening. She acted like a lunatic. Instead of just being kind and saying "Wait they have envelopes and stamps inside she just shoved me and jerked them out of the garbage." My husband came in the kitchen and asked what's going on. I said, "She didn't want the used gift bags so I threw them away because they have been lying around three days." He looked at them and said, "There's envelopes and stamps in there..." I said, "She told me there were just used gift bags and I didn't look in them because of that."
He begin raging like a maniac and getting in my face and spitting on me. He threatened me, shoved me, screamed at me, said horrible things to me... I screamed back at times. He already accused me yesterday of hiding her stuff and that's bullshit. She blames everyone for everything just like her brother and my husband does. It's really old, with me... t's been six years of it. He said such horrible things such as "You killed your first husband..." HE KNOWS NOTHING about my first husband because I told him very little, and that was back when we first met. MY FIRST HUSAND USED TOBACCO FOR YEARS BEFORE HE MET ME AND FOR THE 10 YEARS WE WERE TOGETHER. HE SPENT THE LAST 30 DAYS OF HIS LIFE IN THE HOSPITAL DYING OF CANCER (STOMACH, ETC.) I spent ALL my time with him over that 30 days and nights, just going home for an hour to 3 hours every other day to tend to our animals. SO my husband NOW KNOWS NOTH(NG about my first husband. He was far from perfect and our relationship had ups and downs like most people but I never told my husband now the things he's told me about his first wife. I find it very strange he keeps calling his deceased wife his EX WIFE... He's done this the entire 6 years we've been together. I think, but don't know for a fact that he and she did indeed divorce, but she came back to him for either the kids (he threatened to take) or because of his control over her. I found some old papers where she'd filled out to get her own apartment and they read she was going through /getting a divorce. I truly believe they did and did not tell anyone (but probably her Mom).
My husband said his deceased wife's Mom hated him basically. When we were dating I went with them to Memphis for Thanksgiving, to meet his deceased wife's friends... a couple she was close to, and grew up with the woman. His deceased wife's mother was in a nursing home and he (my husband) and his 18 year old daughter and 21 yr. old son went to see her twice while we were there. He did NOT WANT her to know he was dating anyone. He (my husband) had tried to date two women before me... He had one date with both of them (that's what he told me) and they wanted nothing more to do with him. I always wondered why. I guess they were more worldly and wise about men then what I was. (My first husband was the only man I'd ever lived with and he and I were together 10 years.) Here in the closet (at our city house) is a painting of white roses that my husband bought for one of the women he was trying to have a second date with. It's about 16 or 18 x about 20 or 24 inches. It's still wrapped. He offered it to me right after we begin dating, and told me he was going to give it to her on their second date because she had a birthday coming up in a few days but she kept putting him off and they never actually had a second date. I knew about this woman when he and I first begin talking. After the second date never happened he begin calling me much more and dating me. He didn't want to have to lie to that woman about dating someone else (ME) so we didn't date until he was sure that was over ... which only took less than 2 weeks because she never dated him again and he never gave her the gift he's bought ... the rose painting. He said it was about a $100 gift back then.
I'm really sick of his allowing his two grown adult "kids" to run OVER him and ME. It's just like several people have said, his son is he type to rape women. His scared to approach women but he will find one to bully. Even a stranger in a restaurant told me this once.
My husband and I were eating out about a year ago or a year and a half ago... and he started a fight, and then made me go into a restaurant to eat with him. I was crying in the bathroom, and a waitress came in and was very kind and we begin talking. (His son got in trouble working contract work where my husband works... because he was sexually harassing a woman worker there... I know this from what his son said that this is true... but he was terrified that his dad was going to find out what he did. I overheard him talking to his dad and also about it with someone on the phone that he didn't want his dad to know.) His adult kids are psychos literally. I am tired of living afraid and always walking on eggs and always being abused in some way. I truly am sick of my husband putting down on me... I have three voice records of almost NOTHING but his raging from this evening. HE'S constantly RAGING and cussing at me and attempting to bully me, and intimidate me, in front of his daughter. Three voice records are of my husband sounding like a demented person. It's obvious he is not rational at all. I did call his daughter a bitch after she shoved me, elbowed me and threw things and hit me with them twice. I also told her I'm not going to be abused by her or she WILL go to jail. In August 2021 she attacked me three times ON THE SAME day... MY Husband made her mad and then left her with me... ON PURPOSE. He left her here (city house) while he went to drive around... I called him and asked him to get back home that she was going ballistic because she was mad he left without her. His very words to me were, "Fuck I'll come back when I want to." I hung up the phone and called my sister, and she and I both called the cops. I had them meet me up the street so no one in the subdivision would see them come to our house. I ONLY wanted to write up a report. I had bruises, and reds hit marks all over my arms and chest and neck and face. I looked SO BEAT up by someone that the cops (4 of them) took matters into their own hands and came to the house and charged her with attacking me. It was a hurricane day so they did not take her to jail.
I was good enough in my heart to go to the D.A.'s office the next week (because my husband kept threatening me and also because I didn't want his daughter to have a record...) and ask them to drop the charges. My husband thought I was stupid and wanted me to tell the D.A. I hit her first. I TOLD HIM FLAT OUT "NO WAY WILL I LIE LIKE THAT WHEN I DID NOT HIT HER FIRST". I wrote a statement that it was a hurricane day and everyone's nerves where on edge. That's the best I would do. He had also agreed to make them both (his son and daughter go to family counseling which I put into my report to the D.A. He NEVER made them do it (go to counseling). If I had known he was not going to keep his word about that, I would not have allowed him to intimidate me so much, when I was NOT the one that did the charges on her... four cops were because I looked so beaten up by her!! (I think today, SHE was afraid, and is, that she may actually GO TO JAIL if she doesn't leave me alone. Sigh. I hate for anyone to have to push me to the point I MUST defend myself like this.)
I told my husband in one of the voice recordings that I have almost six years of documentation and proof of his abuse of me. I told him I'm sick of his threats and I will post it all online for anyone to read if he doesn't stop his abuse of me. I told him I'm sick of it all and I'm sick and tired of him and his 24 year old daughter and his 27 year old son disrespecting and threatening me with physical harm. He RAGED like he needed someone to knock him out... sigh. SEE they (the three of them will not do this to anyone they think WILL knock them out... because they ARE bullies). They all three think women in general are supposed to put up with their bullsh*t and abuse. They bullied their mother / his deceased wife for years... so they were used to keeping whoever my husband was with a "prisoner" basically, with mental, physical and emotional abuse.
Even my husband's sister asked me a few years ago, on the phone if I thought, my husband's son had ever sexually abused his sister??? I was shocked back then and after observing them (brother and sister) for a year I can to the conclusion he HAD sexually abused her (she is 3 years younger than him). I saw him on several occasions openly lust after her (not to mention the fact that he made sexual advances toward me three times the first year my husband and I were married. I wonder if that's her reason for being "transgender" and suddenly wanting to "be a man"?? She HATED her brother the first TWO years I was here with my husband... I MEAN HATED him.
My friend that passed away last year always told me she feared for me... I FEAR for me and my animals most of the time here. I've been ready to leave for the last year and a half AT LEAST... I do love my husband but he's FAST killing it. He's used to his wife taking his sh*t and forgiving and forgetting. I NEED to be out of this GOD. My friend spent many years in an abusive relationship. She used to tell me... "You can still love him... just love him from afar..." She finally got away from her husband after many years of abuse right about the time my husband and I met and begin dating.
Something my husband said today is very unsettling to me... I listened to some of the voice recordings and it was very strange... at some point he said out of the blue something like, "I didn't kill my ex wife..." I will listen to it again and write about this again.
I'm exhausted, and have been shaking like a leaf the last few hours, since about three thirty when all this happened. I'm have been crying but have not let my husband see me. He's been so mean and hateful and abusive today. I'm tired ... I'm tired... I want out of this. I don't even care if God touches his heart and he changes.... I STILL want out. WHAT HOLDS ME HERE... A LACK OF A WAY TO CARE FOR MY ANIMALS AND PROVIDE A HOME FOR THEM. GOD, I truly truly cannot keep holding on.... I'm shaking so much I can barely type. I'm stopping for now and going for a drive while my husband takes his daughter back to her apartment to get more of her junk.
ONE DAY SOON my husband is going to be ALL ALONE and his "kids" ARE not going to have anything to do with him. The only reason the do at all now is him paying their way. His daughter has gone weeks without even answering his text or calls?? But she loves him. He almost died of covid at our old country house and neither of them would even take time on the phone to talk to him much less offer to do anything for him.
It's 7:40 pm... I've been trying to write this for the last 3 hours.... without my husband seeing me... sigh.
It's 9:08 pm now. My husband is still gone with taking his daughter to get more of her junk from her apartment we just paid $700 dollars for her for another months RENT.
I see he just order pizza's from dominos. (He had given me 4--$25 dollar gift card the other day and then took two back today.)
ALL this fear, upset, raging and meanness of him and his daughter this evening has given me a headache, made my cats throw up in upset, and made my big shepherd dog boy try to beak out of the backyard to GET TO ME... because he heard all the raging and cussing my husband did at me today. I've cried the last couple hours.
